{"id":1353,"date":"2015-11-12T09:22:00","date_gmt":"2015-11-12T14:22:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/abbysyarns.com\/?p=1353"},"modified":"2015-11-12T09:22:00","modified_gmt":"2015-11-12T14:22:00","slug":"two-years","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/abbysyarns.com\/webshop\/2015\/11\/12\/two-years\/","title":{"rendered":"Two Years"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>Dear Chris,<\/p>\n<p>Well, it&#8217;s been two years now. I guess on the bright side, when I woke up, it wasn&#8217;t the morning of the first snow. Maybe that&#8217;s not the bright side, because the first snow will probably make me cry just like this anniversary of your death does. <\/p>\n<div id=\"attachment_1302\" style=\"width: 970px\" class=\"wp-caption aligncenter\"><a href=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/abbysyarns.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2015\/03\/1476212_719720898047605_711570616_n.jpg\"><img aria-describedby=\"caption-attachment-1302\" decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/abbysyarns.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2015\/03\/1476212_719720898047605_711570616_n.jpg?resize=960%2C660\" alt=\"Chris and Abby, 1972\" width=\"960\" height=\"660\" class=\"size-full wp-image-1302\" data-recalc-dims=\"1\" \/><\/a><p id=\"caption-attachment-1302\" class=\"wp-caption-text\">Chris and Abby, 1972<\/p><\/div>\n<div id=\"attachment_1176\" style=\"width: 935px\" class=\"wp-caption aligncenter\"><a href=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/abbysyarns.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/11\/1551672_731723646847330_1494022458_n.jpg\"><img aria-describedby=\"caption-attachment-1176\" decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/abbysyarns.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/11\/1551672_731723646847330_1494022458_n.jpg?resize=925%2C960\" alt=\"Chris and Abby, summer 1973\" width=\"925\" height=\"960\" class=\"size-full wp-image-1176\" data-recalc-dims=\"1\" \/><\/a><p id=\"caption-attachment-1176\" class=\"wp-caption-text\">Chris and Abby, summer 1973<\/p><\/div>\n<p>You taught me to swim there, and you know there&#8217;s nobody for generations in your family who doesn&#8217;t know exactly where this photo was taken. There are so many things I meant to ask you about that place. I thought there&#8217;d be more time. Why couldn&#8217;t there have been more time? Lots of people get more time with their moms. Yeah, I know, there are also people who don&#8217;t get as much. None of that is the point, though. It&#8217;s like when Ed was dying, and he said it wasn&#8217;t as tragic as if it was happening to a young mom with little kids, and I told him he was wrong, because whoever that person might be, and however sad that story might be, it wasn&#8217;t about my father. I don&#8217;t think he&#8217;d thought about it that way. But you had. He saw what I meant, but you already knew. <\/p>\n<p>I want to have a tantrum, like a toddler, like a teenager. It&#8217;s not fair. I hate you being dead. Nothing I can say about it is really any more than that. I can say it lots of ways, with lots of words, but they all just mean the same thing. <\/p>\n<div id=\"attachment_1354\" style=\"width: 970px\" class=\"wp-caption aligncenter\"><a href=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/abbysyarns.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2015\/11\/molly0001.jpg\"><img aria-describedby=\"caption-attachment-1354\" decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/abbysyarns.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2015\/11\/molly0001.jpg?resize=960%2C673\" alt=\"Chris, Molly, and Ed, 1975\" width=\"960\" height=\"673\" class=\"size-full wp-image-1354\" data-recalc-dims=\"1\" \/><\/a><p id=\"caption-attachment-1354\" class=\"wp-caption-text\">Chris, Molly, and Ed, 1975<\/p><\/div>\n<p>I hate that you&#8217;re all gone. It&#8217;s all too soon. It&#8217;s all too sad. It&#8217;s all too hard. It makes me cry. I hate crying. You know that. Everybody knows that. So let&#8217;s just have a song instead and we can pretend it&#8217;s the song we&#8217;re crying about. <\/p>\n<p><iframe loading=\"lazy\" width=\"560\" height=\"315\" src=\"https:\/\/www.youtube.com\/embed\/8LiyuSjBP2Q\" frameborder=\"0\" allowfullscreen><\/iframe><\/p>\n<p>I know there are so many tragedies so much vaster, and that I am no orphaned baby daughter, but rather, a full-grown woman who oughta be bringing in the crops before they are left standing, rotted, in November. But man, that sure is a wide, muddy river, and if you were still here, we could talk for hours about rivers of tears in cross-cultural symbolism.  <\/p>\n<p>I miss you, Chris. Thank you for my life. For everything. <\/p>\n<p>Love always,<\/p>\n<p>Abigail May<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Dear Chris, Well, it&#8217;s been two years now. I guess on the bright side, when I woke up, it wasn&#8217;t the morning of the first snow. Maybe that&#8217;s not the bright side, because the first snow will probably make me cry just like this anniversary of your death does. You taught me to swim there, [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"pmpro_default_level":"","jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"footnotes":"","_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","enabled":false}}},"categories":[48],"tags":[],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/p9Duui-lP","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/abbysyarns.com\/webshop\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1353"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/abbysyarns.com\/webshop\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/abbysyarns.com\/webshop\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/abbysyarns.com\/webshop\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/abbysyarns.com\/webshop\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=1353"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/abbysyarns.com\/webshop\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1353\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/abbysyarns.com\/webshop\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=1353"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/abbysyarns.com\/webshop\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=1353"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/abbysyarns.com\/webshop\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=1353"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}